Day One of Vyvanse is complete.  What a fucking weird-ass day.
So, I guess this blog is going to be me trying to figure out where I am going in life.  How to open the pandora's box of feelings that I've locked away for over a year.  And evaluating these pills.  This whole things is confusing, I just don't know what I'm doing.  What exactly I want to achieve, I say it's time to open that box, but damn.  I am afraid of that box.  Part of me loves to be indifferent, to not care about anything.  It's easy and convenient.  But it also turns me into a cold, unfeeling, unpredictable, completely bitchy psychopath.  And people don't like that.
So, here I am on the yellow brick road.  Fresh diagnosis, fresh pills pills pills.  :/

Bi-polar II.
Lamictyl 100mg
Xanax 1mg
Vyvanse 20mg
Remeron 15mg

That's my beginning dosages.  Started 6/10/2012.
I do not respond to SSRI's.
2005- Zoloft made me FAT.  50lbs heavier in 6 months, it's taken me 3 years to lose 30 lbs from that disaster.  It didn't even work, turned me into a zombie, constantly searching for food and baking cake.  I HATE sweets, always have, but Zoloft loves sweet treats.  Remeron doesn't help, it loves carbs.  (Which Jill also loves.  Yumm)
So, here we are at Lamictyl, promises that I will not gain weight.  Coupled with Vyvanse I have zero interest in food, yay.  :)